On September 8, 2010 shortly after the birth of my princess Abigail, the doctors informed my husband that I was not expected to make it through the night. After a routine C-Section I had suffered massive hemorrhaging from my uterus, for about an hour the doctors performed CPR trying to save me. I had lost so much blood that my heart stopped at three different times, but they kept working to keep me alive. An emergency D&C was performed but was unsuccessful,they went and ask John permission to give me a hysterectomy, John said, “do what you have to do to save my wife”. They performed the hysterectamy, but by this time my heart became weak, after I was stable they did a ultrasound of my heart and found some abnormalities. Now I thank God I was able to recover but at the time I did not see the blessing and miracle that was given to me.
After all I had experienced throughout my life, this event threw me over the edge I struggled with my purpose and was very angry that God would spare my life to bring me back to an unjust world. It took me about a year to fully understand that I was brought back to change my world. When you are given a second chance to live life to the fullest you don’t waste it. I started volunteer work and found my purpose was to make the life of at least one person a little easier. I know that I can’t change the entire world but I can help change the world of the people around me.
Abigail was born on my birthday and for me it is a true celebration of life, my life that was spared and her life that is just getting started. I pray Abigail will find her purpose early on and that she will live her life to the fullest and never stops chasing her dreams. I want to be a good example for her and the rest of my children, I want to teach them to always look for the good in people and to never let your situation in life define who you are, to work at anything they do with all their heart and whatever they decide to be, that they be the best at it!
So this leads me to my birthday wish, my wish today is that you always look for the good in people and never let your situation in life define who you are, work hard at anything you do and what ever you are be the best at it! This year instead of Birthday wishes on my facebook wall or phone calls, I want you to write on my wall the good deed you did for the day or call me to let me know. This year and every year on my birthday to celebrate my life I want you to volunteer to help a struggling organization or help a family in need (who ever you help is cool to me). I love all my friends and family, I am very blessed to have such amazing support.This next year I have my own things that I am working towards, and I promise what I asked of you I will do the same.