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the new well detox day 8 & 9

18 Nov

I am towards the end of my detox, really today is the last day to take supplements and tomorrow I will be add more variety of foods back into my diet. This is the first detox I have ever done, I have always been afraid because its usually a liquid diet, ain’t nobody got time for that (lol). The way it works is, you have a set food plan for each day, you gradually take away foods on the list, then add them back in towards the end of the week. You drink a shake that gets rid of the metals and environmental toxins and a supplement that adds nutrients back in your body. You are never hungry because you can have unlimited servings of the items set food plan.

For the first in my life I made Salmon and actually enjoyed it, I even convinced my 4 year old that it was chicken and she loved it. I wish I was able to get her  to drink the green smoothie (kale, spinach, apple, pear, ice and water, blended) I made because it was so yummy and good for you, the boys enjoyed it and I plan on making it often. I have not really been on a workout routine since I started working in June. I have the energy and I am making workout a priority! Being a wellness consultant I have to set a good example, not only for my family, but for my clients and friends. This detox has definitely put me in a better spot mentally. After all, anything you ever do in life has nothing to do with your physically ability but how mentally strong you are.

So my question is, what are you waiting for? Not just with this detox, what is holding you back from reaching your weight loss goal? Why wait for tomorrow? Tomorrow never comes, Monday never comes, next week or next month NEVER COME!!!! You just got to wake up an make the choice for today:)

FYI I am on day 9  I am feeling great, after I log off here I am headed to the gym and am planning for a busy day. Please comment below if you have any questions about the detox or need help starting your journey:)



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My Birthday Wish…

7 Sep

In honor of my birthday please show kindness to others. Volunteer, buy someone’s coffee, give a smile or a hug.

Real Mom of 5

On September 8, 2010 shortly after the birth of my princess Abigail, the doctors informed my husband that I was not expected to make it through the night. After a routine C-Section I had suffered massive hemorrhaging from my uterus, for about an hour the doctors performed CPR trying to save me. I had lost so much blood that my heart stopped at three different times, but they kept working to keep me alive. An emergency D&C was performed but was unsuccessful,they went and ask John permission to give me a hysterectomy, John said, “do what you have to do to save my wife”. They performed the hysterectamy, but by this time my heart became weak, after I was stable they did a ultrasound of my heart and found some abnormalities. Now I thank God I was able to recover but at the time I did not see the blessing…

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Dear Today Show…

6 Mar

Dear Today Show,

This is my last and I promise my final letter to your show, you see I have been writing you since November of 2011 with the hopes that my story would be shared live. In my mind I visioned that after my first letter you would have been so excited to contact me and after my story was shared the world would help me build a $150k wheelchair accessible playground (the Blue Slide Project) at my son’s school. I knew the odds were not in my favor, unemployment was at its highest and we were in the heart of a recession. I still held onto hope and continued to write, at first weekly, then monthly, after no response my vision didn’t seem so realistic. I am not going to lie, I was a little upset mostly because I never received a response. Not even one of those automatic replies to let me know the information was seen or thank you but not thank you. So my story was out there and like so many stories it could sit there with the stack of others and be unnoticed, or the story could be heard and only the people who really mattered can take part in it. 

I realized, if I was just given the  $150k to build the only wheelchair accessible playground in Grants Pass and only ALL-INCLUSIVE playground in Southern Oregon I would have learned nothing. Since November 2011 our PTA, local Foundations, and community raised over $150k and we plan to start the construction of Phase 2 on June 23rd 2014. I wanted to thank you for never replying because had I not experienced that rejection I would have never found the fight to keep going. I met some of my greatest friends and had the opportunity to have my project chosen for the Community Spirit Award. An award that only 4 people have received in 90 years of the Chamber of Commerce history.  I watched a great man walk 47 miles with Parkinson’s disease to raise money because he wanted to do something my son couldn’t, he wanted to walk. 6 PTA moms walked 35 miles to bridge the gap between the only two wheelchair accessible playgrounds in Southern Oregon, in 17 hours!!! I lost 113 pounds during the Blue Slide Project weight loss challenge raising $1500, others decided to make the change for health as well. I attended a car wash at Roe Motors that raised over $3000 in just a few hours, a month long Blue Slide Challenge at Lithia of Grants Pass raising $10k for our project.  Perfect strangers are now friends, a community united because we all believed that no child should be excluded from a playground just because they were born different or because when they were 4 months old a tumor paralyzed them. 

If I had the opportunity to have my child walk I would take it in a heart beat, if I could trade places I would. No one will ever understand why I have fought so hard for this project. Not to have my name in the “lime light” (can you believe someone really told me this???) but to see my son play on a playground with no boundaries. A dream for me to see Isaac play with freedom, nothing stopping him from being a normal child. Giving my son and others like him the opportunity to play tag and not have a pile of rocks remind them that they are disabled. The Blue Slide Project will provide the rare opportunity for children of ALL abilities to play on the same playground, NO BOUNDARIES!!!

In closing, I still really love your show and your recent “Love your Selfie” segment inspired me to post a selfie on my weight loss page hoping to inspire others. Thank you for all you do to help or not help people share their stories, you really do rock!!!!




Phase 1



6 PTA moms walked 35 miles


I have since lost 148 pounds:)Image


Roe Motors Car Wash


Lithia Blue Slide Challenge


My Challenge…

26 Feb

One year ago yesterday I started this challenge, since then I have lost 147 pounds and I am just 12 pounds from reaching my goal. Never give up!

Real Mom of 5

Me and my brother David Me and my brother David

I recently had to get on a scale and face the damage. I knew I was overweight but it was easier for me to accept that this is just the way I am. Struggling with weight my whole life, I bought into this lie. It wasn’t until December when my brother David passed away at the young age of 47, that I realized I needed to make life changing decisions when it came to my health. Not only for myself, but for my husband and 5 children who are only eating what I give them. I don’t ever want to put them in the situation to see me, like I had to see my brother.

It is heartbreaking knowing the past 5 years of cancer were not only catching up to me mentally and emotionally but physically as well. I have gained over 80 pounds…

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25 Jan

I am often asked the question, “how do you stay motivated”? There are several things that motivate me, in the beginning the Blue Slide Weight loss challenge and my baby sister’s wedding kept me going. There was/is something in the back of my mind that is a constant reminder of why I need to be healthy. When I say I am on a journey to save my life I mean that in the most drastic way, addictions are tough. I come from a family of addicts, I have watched the people I love get slowly taken from me because they could not, didn’t want to, or didn’t know how to control their addiction. For me it was the same, I starting drinking at the young age of 14 and found myself on a road that was leading me to my destiny. Growing up without my father I was more likely to use drugs or alcohol, have a teen pregnancy, be obese and there was a greater chance to be sexual and physically abused. To be honest, although it was hard not having him, I think it would have been harder and I would have turned out worse had he been in the home. I do not blame my parents for any mistakes that I have made nor blame them for the life I had, everything that happened or was said to me made me the mom, wife, sister, friend I am today. Although I was more likely to fail in life because I didn’t have my father, in the end the choices were mine.

The things we are told as children can stick with us for the rest of our lives, that saying, “sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt me” is a bunch of crap. Physical wounds fade, but words stay in your mind forever, although some may be able to brush things off, others like myself are not. They stick to us, they become who we are and we take what others say about us as truth. I was often told that I was too sensitive and dramatic. But if you tell your children they are worthless and good for nothing, then there is a high chance they will feel worthless and good for nothing. And they will meet people who confirm what they were told, and they go through life trying to cover up the person they were meant to be. 

So I put on layers, my food addiction started when I was 8 (my earliest memory) and when I did see my dad his first comment would be that I needed to lose weight. I was often called a “bitch,fat bitch and my favorite, Orca”. I didn’t know what orca meant but knew it wasn’t a good name. I later figured out it was a whale, so I kept putting on the layers. Abuse would come to memory and I would eat to cover it up. I didn’t want to remember anything so I buried it, at 14 I ran away from home and that is when I started drinking. I remember going to school drunk and my English teacher Mr. Ortiz pulling me out of class and telling me basically, “what the heck is wrong with you”? He was the only one that ever reached out to me, but I had so much negative that his one positive was over powered. I didn’t stand a chance and I knew I had no future, graduating from high school was my only goal in life and I sucked at that. 

It was no surprise to anyone that I would end up pregnant at 17, I felt so much shame being the only pregnant girl in our small town. My friends mom was the nurse who took my pregnancy test and it was very clear that I was tainted and parents started to fear if their teenage daughters were around me they would be pregnant too. I was alone, no future, no hope!! After I had my first born I was probably around 200-220 pounds.I worked for a plus size store, starting meeting people and my confidence was higher, I was discovering a whole new world. Started working for a bank shortly after and things were finally starting to look up for me, I was seeing a little bit of sunshine and my future didn’t seem so hopeless. I started losing weight and think I was down to 180. I hit a rough patch with drinking again, met my husband who would not tolerate it and wouldn’t be with a girl who partied so I tried to change. I was pregnant again and after my son was born I was married.

After about 5 years we found ourselves at a crossroads, I filed for divorce when I was pregnant with our twins, I miscarried one at 3 months gestation. My attorney said wait until after the birth of the surviving twin to sign so we wouldn’t have to go back to court. When Isaac was born he was in the NICU because of lung infection. At 2 1/2 months he was in ICU with Pneumonia and at 3 1/2 months old he was diagnosed with stage 4 Neuroblastoma (cancer), two weeks later he was paralyzed. My husband and I decided we needed each other to get through this hard time and put the divorce on the back burner. During his treatment and hospitalizations I gained about 80 pounds, with each trauma I kept putting on the layers. I had another miscarriage in 2008, I was devastated, left with empty arms and I wasn’t sure why I had to go through so much. All my pain, hurts, disappointments, fears, failures were being covered up, I wasn’t going to let anyone see me.

When it was time for the birth of our 5th child I believe I was around 270 pounds, I suffered massive hemorrhaging after my c-section and my heart stopped 3 or 4 times. I was given several blood transfusion but I kept bleeding, my doctor decided to save my life I needed a hysterectomy. I was not expected to live and to be brutally honest there was a time when I wished I did not make it, I didn’t want to live this life anymore. I didn’t understand at the time why one person had to go through so much pain and heart ache and had to struggle so much just to survive. 

So when my brother, who was the most loving, forgiving, and encouraging constant person in my life died because of obesity, I had to make the choice to save my life. As hard as my life was, it was mine. I had to take the layers off so I can fully be who God intended me to be. NOT worthless and good for nothing, but a strong woman who loves passionately and is willing to do any and everything to make sure her family is taken care of, that her friends know just how blessed she is to have them. I can’t help but think that as I was dying after giving birth to my daughter, that my brother was praying for us to trade places. He was the last face I seen before I went into a coma, and I know how much he loved me.

The layers we put on ourselves or the ones people put on us are not meant to be there, as we discover who we are and the layers shed we can fully walk in freedom. Yes I am a food addict, yes I will always be a food addict, but I don’t have to let my addiction control who or what I am. When everything else is crazy in my life, when I can’t control what the doctors say about my son, or how I am going to pay this or that. The one thing I do have control of are the things I put in my mouth and how I treat my body. So I will use this to my advantage and work hard to save my life. So when you ask me “how do you stay motivated”, my response will be I want to save my life, I want to be free!! I thank God for helping me through everything.

I hope wherever you are on your journey that you would make the choice to live in freedom, it is an amazing feeling and although I still have a lot of work I feel like I have come a long way. I have learned that dealing with my layers is the only way I can fully heal and be free. It is so hard but a necessary part of my journey, thank you for being apart of it!!



My Meal Plan…

14 Jan



PLEASE REMEMBER I AM NOT A DOCTOR OR A NUTRITIONIST, I have been asked what types of things I eat and what has helped me lose all my weight. I did NOT have any surgeries and did not use any weight loss aids, no magic pill or shakes just hard work and dedication to health. I copy and pasted this from My Secret to Weight loss blog on wordpress ” In the past 9 months I have tried a few weight loss plans but mostly have stuck with counting calories and exercising (Weight Watcher meals and Slim Fast barare my usual go tos). You really have to listen to your body to figure out what works best for you. The secret to my weight loss success was not a magic shake or pill, it was me believing in myself and working hard towards my goal. It’s not the weight loss plan that works, its the persons hard work and determination that makes the plan work. It was all trial and error for me, in the beginning I chose to do a low calorie diet and although it taught me to only use food for fuel it had negative side affects. My hair started to fall out and I was fatigue, since I loved to exercise (and love my hair lol) I quickly realized that I needed to eat more. I still eat the foods I love but I have learned to make a healthier version and in proper portions.”

Here is a sample of what I eat throughout the day.


1 cup of coffee with a splash of flavored cream (I use regular cream at home but when I buy my drink out I get sugar free caramel with (1 tablespoon of cream)

Fruit Smoothie (when it is warm out)

1/4 cup of yogurt

3/4 cup of milk

add about a cup of frozen fruit


Oatmeal, I add a little bit of milk and 1/2 tsp of brown sugar (You will get use to not using so much sugar over time)


Veggie egg white omelet (I usually eat this on Saturday because I have time)

2 egg whites

1/4 cup onion

1/4 cup bell pepper

1/4 cup mushroom 

sprinkle of cheese

Slim Fast Bar or Weight Watcher Meal

(this is what I eat now since my mornings are usually busy.) I try and not eat bread more than once a day.)

Mid morning Snack (choose 1)

A few slices of lean turkey (this is my usual)

handful of nuts

dried fruit (if I want something sweet)

fresh fruit


Chicken Salad with salsa as dressing


Progresso Soups Light or regular I try to go over 100 cal per serving 


Slim Fast Bar/Weight Watcher Meal


Subway Oven Roasted Chicken/pepper jack cheese with tons of veggies a little bit honey mustard and siracha sauce


afternoon snack

Same as Morning snack



1 corn tortilla baked (rub coconut oil on tortilla, bake for 4 min each side at 400 degrees).

1/2 cup ground turkey

homemade refried beans





plain greek yogurt (to act as sour cream)


Evening snack

Same as other snack choices, I like to eat protein but will eat a fruit if I have not had one yet.

Basically I eat whatever I make my family for dinner but I watch the portions, I never feel deprived because I found healthier ways to make the things I like. You have to ask yourself when making a food choice, “if I eat this will it help me get closer to my goal or push me further away?” If you feel hungry throughout the day and have already had your snack eat some nuts or a few slices of lean turkey. When I workout in the morning I am hungry from all the extra calories I burned so I make sure I have a snack when I get home. Water is so important, I can not stress this enough, it will not only help you feel fuller but helps with digestion and you will find that your skin is healthier. Whatever plan you are on as long as you stay focused it will work! You will start to see a change in your attitude when you see it as a lifestyle and not a diet. I currently eat between 1,200-1,500 cal depending on my exercise. If you are just starting out, start with at least 15 min of exercise a day and work your way up to 30-45 min. In the beginning I only walked for exercise, if you can do more that is awesome. Please listen to your body, like I said before I am not a nutritionist, I have no clue if what I am doing is right I just know it was right for me. If you have any questions please message me below or visit my facebook fan page

Thank you so much for reading!