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If at first you don’t succeed…

27 Dec

As you know, my son Isaac had surgery two days before Christmas, we left on Sunday night (the 21st) and came home Christmas eve, just in time to enjoy my family. While I was gone, it was easy for me to say no to temptation because I was so determined not to let stress get the best of me. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed a few bites of fudge and a sip of Isaac’s hot chocolate but I left feeling accomplished. It was a totally different story when I got home, I made Christmas breakfast (French Toast), I usually make myself an omelet or oatmeal, but this time I ate what everyone else ate. For dinner I made a ham with all the usual sides, I did watch my portion size but had tons of starches. Later I ate a piece of Cinnamon roll, but with all the sugar and starches I had already consumed, I knew it was time to throw in sugar and carb towel.

The next day I woke up with the biggest headache and I felt super tired, my goal for the new year is to cut back on sugar and bread. Those two items make me feel yuck and I just don’t want to do that to myself anymore. During the detox I felt amazing and I am not sure why I let them back in my life, but I did and now I face the consequences. I decided to write this blog because I know that if I woke up to a sugar overdose, someone else did too. I know from past experience that as women we are so critical of ourselves, I know that we show other people grace but forget to show it to ourselves. The words to Aaliyah’s song, “Try again” popped in my head, I hope I can encourage every person who reads this, “if at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and try again”.

The good news is, tomorrow is a new day. The holiday’s might have bitten you in the butt, but that doesn’t mean you have to throw all your hard work away. Don’t let the guilt of eating off plan one day (two, three or four) cause you fall deeper in the hole. This is not a game to just quit, this journey has a restart button. Brush yourself off and move forward, why? Because your life is worth saving.

This is not a game!

My husband and I at his company Christmas Party



9 Jul

I am so sorry I have been MIA, the only excuses I have are that I have 5 kids, started a weight loss competition, broke ground for the Blue Slide Project and started a new job (sense the sarcasm? ). On top of that, I am just living life and I am very blessed that I am healthy and on the right path. When I first went into the maintenance phase of my journey I was so terrified to add new things to my diet for fear of gaining weight. I am very thankful for all the support I received, not only from my friends and family but the businesses in the community that partnered with me. To have everyone in my corner even after the weight was lost is amazing. I am not sure how long it would have taken me to trust myself had I not had them. A huge shout out to the Women’s Health Center and the new well for continuing to believe in my success  when I wasn’t able to. Setting the healthy habits along the way have really helped when I become stressed or overwhelmed. In the past I would have definitely turned to food when faced with obstacles. Living in the real world is hard and the easy thing to do is make excuses, but I am confident I have made life long changes. Not only for myself, but for my children and husband, who by the way has lost almost 80 pounds and still going strong. 

I plan on giving back to my community and have decided to take a job at the new well, as a Wellness Consultant. I can see great opportunity to help empower women who have huge giants to conquer. I am excited for this new chapter in my life, and never imagined when I started my journey that I would be here. I am so thankful to God, who has help me create my support system and has never left my side. 

I will end with this, when you are in the valley and see you have a big mountain to climb it is helpful to look back every now and then to see how far you have come. Not to look in the past and dwell on the bad, but looking at the little progress that was made. When your feet are tired and you are not sure how you will continue, look back again and you will see you are higher than you were before and it will give you hope that change is happening. When you are almost to the end, look at your finish line, don’t look back any more just run. By now you are strong, you have changed, you believe you are able to reach the top because now your end is right in front of you. Looking back now will be pointless, you will see no change just flat land. When you reach the top, stand tall and look at your obstacles as steps to get to the top.Be proud of how far you have come and celebrate in your new confidence. Do not let people tell you what you can do, that is up to you to decide. remember, anything is possible!

This is on top of Lower Table Rock, in Oregon.

This is on top of Lower Table Rock, in Oregon.



Psalm 23
Psalm of David.

1 The Lord is my shepherd;
    I have all that I need.
2 He lets me rest in green meadows;
    he leads me beside peaceful streams.
3     He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
    bringing honor to his name.
4 Even when I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will not be afraid,
    for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff
    protect and comfort me.
5 You prepare a feast for me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
    My cup overflows with blessings.
6 Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
    all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of theLord

Fresh Start…

27 Mar

I was recently asked to be a team captain of the Biggest Winner competition through the New Well program here in Grants Pass. I would say, the New Well is compared to Weight Watchers because of the support and many different services they offer. I am not being paid by the New Well to say any of this, this is my honest experience good and bad. I was excited when I was asked to be a team captain because I want to encourage and help those who are battling food addiction and what a great way to do it. The Biggest Winner is compared to the Biggest Loser but on a much smaller level and only locals and those already participating in the New Well Program can join. I will get to meet with the people I am helping weekly, workout with them and challenge them. So in order to know the program I have to go through it right? YES!

Tuesday the 25th of March was my first day on the New Well Fresh Start Program, to be completely honest I was intimidated and had a bit of anxiety. When I was doing things on my own, I never limited myself any foods healthy or unhealthy, but it was my understanding that to get to where I wanted to be there were things that I just didn’t eat. I wanted to reach my goal and so I would pick the best things for myself and it helped me knowing that I did have a choice. Reading the list of foods I could eat, even though it was in unlimited amounts made me freak out inside. What do you mean I can’t eat my oatmeal and have cream in my coffee? This was comfortable to me, this is what have done for several months and leaving my comfort zone threw me back to the very beginning of my journey. You have to remember, I have been doing this on my own for the past 14 months. No one wrote down a meal plan for me and said follow this, eat this, don’t eat this. It was trial and error, I wrote down my foods, if I had a bad week, I avoided those foods or only ate them occasionally. I was in control, it has always felt good knowing this was the only thing in my life had control over. I didn’t like that part being told what I could and couldn’t eat, but I wanted to follow the plan as written (sometimes I am a bit of an over achiever), because at this point in my journey I am very disciplined. I have 7 pounds to lose and I am not hurting myself or anyone else by trying something new. And OH MY GOSH MONA, IT’S ONLY THREE DAYS (three days without my oatmeal and cream seems like a lifetime;)!!!!!

Today I am on day three and I feel pretty good minus the detox headache, I never realized how much sugar is in a slimfast bar and how much sodium I was consuming. When I think of sugar I think sweets, but its a lot of things that are processed. I have been following the program as written, except yesterday I had to eat a Quest Bar because of my intense workout. There are things that are really similar to what I have already been doing, and I don’t feel like I am missing out. The only bad thing I have to say at this point is the first three days, you really have to be at home or work where there is a refrigerator. Because I can’t eat my bars, grains or nuts I had a hard time with finding a snack to take on the go. I talked to one of the consultants and she suggested hard boiled eggs, I will try that today because I will be out and about. This has been so good for me, I think it is good to change things up and try new things. I will treat this program like I did in the beginning of my journey, even though my mind wants certain foods, I have to trust that if I abstain that I will get to where I want to be in a healthy and safe way.

Weight loss is such a mind game, the physical list of things I could eat made me second guess myself, made me think I wasn’t strong enough. Even though I had come so far it was something new and it had structure and it scared the crap out of me. That list caused me anxiety but at the end of the day I had the choice to say, no matter what I am going to do it. Everyday we have a choice, whether you are just starting out, you are at your goal/almost there or this is your 100th attempt. Your choice is to keep fighting to save your life, or stay stuck in the endless cycle of trying and giving up. Addiction is a beast, like I said before in a previous blog I have seen it control and take several people I love. I don’t want to be in bondage ever to my addiction, I want to be around to see my children grow up. I want to continue to make memories with my family, love on my friends and change my world. That is what pushes me to succeed, find whatever your drive is and don’t look back!!

Be encouraged, try something new, change your life, change your world:)


The Scale Does NOT Define Me…

15 Feb

Today is my weigh in for a weight-loss challenge that I am organizing (not to be confused with my Tuesday weight in at the Women’s Health Center), and I was up .8 oz from last week, but I have to tell you that the way I feel does not reflect the number on the scale. This past week I was able to do 100 squats with 20 pound weights, 100 bicep curls, Zumba, swimming and the list goes on. I am physically fit, living my life and I feel great!! I am at a point in my journey where I don’t depend on the scale to tell me that I am doing well. For example,  I bought  size medium leggings and a skirt too small on purpose so I could work my way into fitting in them( with the money I won from my last weight loss challenge). Last week they were too tight and yesterday I rocked my outfit, I loved the way I looked and I felt amazing. But the scale said I was heavier? So what? I know the workouts I did this week built muscle, I know since my pants are looser that I am losing inches, so I took what I knew and celebrated in all my victories.

 As women we are so critical of ourselves and I am learning to appreciate all that I have done for my health. I have spent the past year eating healthy and working towards what I thought was a number. So not the case, I have gained confidence in myself, I have changed my lifestyle and I learned that if I put my mind to doing something that anything is possible. Don’t get me wrong when you are over 300 pounds the scale becomes something you depend on because outwardly you see no difference. Honestly after I had lost 50 pounds is when I started to see a change. 

My friends, the scale will only be your buddy for so long, then you have to learn to be your own buddy and your own encouragement. Like I said in a previous blog, if you are chasing a number you will be chasing it for the rest of your life! Seek health and wellness be proud of your victories big or small and know that if you put your mind to it, ANYTHING is possible. Losing weight is such a roller coaster, having a food addiction is tough but choosing to make the right choices each day will get you to where you want to be. Your addiction to food does not have to be what ultimately takes your life, food addiction can be beaten and I am living proof. Be encouraged today!

Have a awesome weekend,  Love yourself enough to make the changes you need towards health. You can do it!!




P.S. My honey is taking me out for Valentine’s Day, I know we are going to see a movie not sure what else, so excited!!!